Everything Comes With a Price.

Could it be possible that you’ve forgotten everything comes with a price? When we ask for things we never really understand the things we are asking for. Sometimes I think we forget that everything won’t just be one-sided and you have to accept everything that comes with what you’re asking for. The saying “new level, new devil” is very accurate and appropriate. Every level has a new devil, and you can only grow and move forward if you are willing to face this, and find a way to move forward despite it. When you ask for something, just get ready for EVERYTHING that comes with it.  You cannot have anything without going through the process to get it. That’s just the way life works. You have to endure the hardships, pain, confusion, trials and tribulations.

“Everything comes at a price. Everything in your life. The question you have to ask yourself is, what price are you willing to pay?”

Could it be possible everything you are going through is just a product of what you asked for? I wanted to be a flight attendant. Ever since I was younger, I’ve always wanted to travel. I figured why not travel as a career.  I enjoy making someone else’s life easier. That’s what brings me joy, I feel as if that’s my passion, to serve others.  To be able to do both, at the same time was an idyllic journey I wanted to be a part of. Being a flight attendant was perfect; I just knew it was for me.  Anyhow, I prayed about it. I applied for the position, went through a three-part interview. The interview started with 60 people, only 10 got hired and I was one of them. I was overflowing with joy. I had to move from my family and friends for training. I went through six long weeks of nonstop training. Had to live with someone who grew up completely different from me, different race, and different beliefs (which is another story for another day, I just don’t have that right now, but it was an experience in itself). Long story short I passed my training and became a flight attendant. I got what I asked for, and I was able to fly. I enjoyed every second of flying. I had the opportunity to meet new people, wake up in different cities, all while serving people. The experience was beyond what I thought it would be. However, it was lonely.  I never flew with the same crew once in the three months I was a flight attendant. I missed my family and friends more than ever before. When I came home I never had enough time to see everybody in one or two days before it was time for me to get back to work. That’s what I asked for, and that’s what it cost me.

“You can have anything in this world you want, if you want it badly enough and you’re willing to pay the price.”

That was nothing, compared to what else came with my experience in the aviation industry. A few months in, I started to have nose bleeds every time I would descend. I felt weaker every trip, and I thought that it was just the change of the altitudes.  I had a doctor’s appointment, a normal checkup. I didn’t even really plan on mentioning the nose bleeds because that’s not what I went for.  I ended up saying something about it, just to be safe. As I was walking out of the office toward the door, I heard a loud boom and all I saw was the lights on the ceiling. I was the boom. I had fainted. I fell and hit my head on a metal garbage can and hit the floor. I had to quit my job. The very same job I asked for.  I have never had any health complications prior. I was scared. I couldn’t drive for a little over a month because I continued to faint. I had continuous visits with different hematologist to figure out exactly what was wrong. I found the one who was right for me, and could give me answers as to what was going on & she said to me “you could either keep flying…or live.”  I was confused because this is something I prayed for, I asked God for this! I wasn’t expecting health complications, I just wanted to fly. I chose to live of course. This past year has been very different for me. Getting treatments for my blood in cancer centers, being the only young person in the room, and taking medication is now a normal for me.  I say all of that to say, everything comes with a price and you really have to be careful what you ask for.

“Everything comes with a price. Everything. Some things just cost more than others.”

I got what I wanted, but it came with a price. Just like everything else in life.  You can’t have sun without the rain. Everybody is paying a price for something that they asked for. It’s all a part of the process. Nothing is ever just easy. It’s so easy to say we want it all. The love, the connection, the “life”…but what most really want is easy. Anything that doesn’t come that way ends up being considered “too much”.  Whether it’s a relationship, job, a marriage, or simply just going to school. You have to take whatever comes with “it”.  Especially, if that’s what you asked for.  I do believe that everything comes to teach us a lesson. If you’re not willing to work through your situation, you won’t learn from it. Everything happens for a reason and we go through things in life so that we can grow. Growth is always necessary and uncomfortable. I had to learn how to be more appreciative, of everything.  I don’t regret anything that happened even though I was upset about it at the time. I couldn’t understand how something like that could happen to me especially when I prayed and I asked God for it. Everything you are going through right now is merely apart of what you asked for. You’re just paying the price.

4 thoughts on “Everything Comes With a Price.

  1. Wow thank you for sharing this piece. I too am interested in the aviation field. I’m currently activily pursuing a career as a flight attendant. This really helped me put things in perspective. I pray for your total and complete healing. Sickness and disease is not your portion.

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